wow. no words can describe what happened this weekend. there are things that we see happen on tv or in movies or soap operas or something, and we look at these events and say "ha, yeah like that would ever happen." we watch terrible things happen all the time, but dont realize how painful they can be. its hard to understand just how realistic some dramas are. i cant think of a single other person thats in my current situation. i think about whats going on and say,"theres no way that this is happening.."........ but it is. i would give just about anything to fix it or stop it, but i cant.
i feel so alone

i know that ill always have my friends. sometimes i just need to hear that tho. my friends are everything to me. especially now. i luv you guys!

i still want a report on that game hehe. hope everyones weekend was great! i guarentee it was better than mine. but im done complaining. i am. i swear hehe. im done

ive suddenly hit a writers block. ill write more later if i remember what i wanted to say hehe