i have a feeling that this weeks postings will say a lot of the same thing. of coarse there will be different circumstances, but it'll all sound something like this:
i was bored. i had something tedious to do. i had fun with my friends. i came home feeling crappy.
 
i don't know what it is, but at the end of the day, when all is said and done, i feel.. well, alone. incomplete. it's hard to describe. i just feel like there's something wrong. when i come home after hanging out with my friends, it always seems as though i'm coming home to disappointment. to a harsher reality than before. i guess i just wish there was more to my life than things that revolve around others. something just for me. sometimes i feel like i do a lot for people, yet none of it is appreciated. it all goes unnoticed. i hear of all these wonderful things that happen to people..
ahh i should just stop now. i don't know what i expect to get out of this.
 
i had fun today. i was up very early this morning in order to get home from Shadow and get everything done before sectionals. speaking of sectionals, everything went very well. we get better with every practice. after band came drivers ed. that was boring, but it goes faster than i would expect. much better than any other summer class i've taken.
tonight was great. i went to jess's house. we played volleyball until dan broke a window, saw kait's ADORABLE dogs and her new puppy!! (she's the cutest dog i have ever seen), and we went swimming in kait's incredibly warm pool. they left the heater on over night by accident, so swimming in her pool was like taking a really fun bath with friends. i should have worded that better... well, anyway, after swimming and figuring out some 6 flags plans, we went back to jess's and hung out for a while. listening to music, talking, and eating is always an enjoyable pastime. before vinnie took me home, him, jen, and i went for a drive. it was a nice night.
 
[cavanaugh park by soco]
and there's never any place
for someone like me to be totally happy
i'm running out of clock and that ain't a shock
some things never do change
never do change