and you don't wanna be here in the future
so you say the present's just a pleasant interruption to the past
and you don't wanna look much closer
cuz you're afraid to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky by now had crashed
and it did
because of me

and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that you're alone
and i'm sleeping in your living room
but we don't have much room to live


christmas spirit?
i'm losing it.
my heart is aching for happiness. i'm not asking for much this christmas. tis better to give than to receive. i enjoy spending half of the money i save each year on my friends and family. there's only one thing i want in return this year...
happiness.

i don't usually ask for things for christmas, but this year, i want something. i need something. something intangible.

i don't usually get much for christmas. i don't need anything. if wanting to be happy is selfish, then i suppose i'll be at the top of santa's 'naughty' list this year. i prolly already am. after all, someone expressing that you ruined their life (or took away a big part of it) is a pretty tough thing to get past. well, you win. i'll be spending most of christmas eve home alone, as i have for the past several years. my parents told me that they're having trouble reaching santa with a list of gifts for me, so he might forget to come to my house this year. well that's alright. it'll save him time. he has a lot of houses to get to. besides, christmas isn't about gifts. it's about the heart and the spirit of the season. i'll find it yet. just give me some time. there are still 10 days until christmas.

what do you want for christmas this year?

i don't want a lot for christmas
there is just one thing i need
i don't care about the presents
underneath the christmas tree
i just want you for my own
more than you could ever know
make my wish come true
all i want for christmas, is you