happy new year!
2005


i had a great new year's eve. let's see, there was jazz band, shopping, taco bell, hangin' with my parents and some friends of the family i rarely get to see, burning cds, and, of course, celebrating! i had an awesome time. good party, good friends, good memories, good music... i'm looking forward to starting a new year. i'll be starting fresh too. everything's different. at least it seems that way. hopefully all of these changes are for the best. i know one thing is for certain: i'm beginning the new year with a huge amount of stress lifted off of my shoulders. i was able to talk through and work out a whole lot of issues before 2005 was put into full swing. it feels good. look out 2005; it's a whole new me. let's make it a good year!

resolutions

i never really thought about what kind of resolutions i wanted to make for this year. it seems as though 2005 started very abruptly. i didn't give the new year much thought until last night, so i suppose you can say i was caught off guard. nevertheless, i came up with a couple of goals.

1. less worrying. it'll be good for me to relax a bit and not worry about every little thing. i let things get to me that shouldn't, so i'm making it a resolution to not take life too seriously. i don't want it to pass me by, and i certainly want to enjoy my senior year of high school.

2. less procrastination. this is an ongoing resolution. i did slightly improve my work habits in 2004, but they're still pretty bad. this time, instead of saying that i'm not going to procrastinate, i'm just going to make some kind of effort to be a more responsible kid, and when i do procrastinate, i'm going to try and stick to resolution #1 so that i don't freak out or put too much pressure on myself.

3. get as involved as possible. i'm gonna end my time at shs with a bang. i want to hang out with my friends as much as i can. if there's an activity at school that interests me (it will most likely be band related), i'm gonna do it. i drive now, and i always have some spare time. i have no excuse.

4. let myself love and be loved. love comes in many forms. friendship being one of the most important ones. i'm going to try to be more trusting, have a little more faith in people, and attempt to stop pushing people away. i don't have anything to hide, and it's the last chance i have to get close to everyone before college. same thing goes for my family. i'm going to be the most forgiving person i can be. no grudges. ever. and i definately need to be nicer to my family. i know i can be.

what are your new year's resolutions?
i hope all of you had a great new year's eve and are looking forward to 2005. all of you seniors out there... we're graduating! woot woot! let's show 'em what we're made of. for some reason or another i'm feeling a bit down in the dumps, but i'll pick it up in no time. at least i hope i will.

welcome to the future, kidos.

first lyrics of the year: Jamie Cullum- Twentysomething

Maybe I'll go travelling for a year
Finding myself, or start a career
I could work the poor, though I'm hungry for fame
We all seem so different but we're just the same