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a possibly permanent switch. we shall see. it's updated, so give it a read and add me to your list of friends =). let me know what you think. blog vs. lj. fight!

stick with blogger or join lj- that is the question.
what do you think?

vinnie- good luck on your auditions! you'll be great =)

nhs lock-in tomorrow night. that should be fun. i always look forward to pulling all-nighters. funny things happen late at night. i just gotta take more pictures this year. i'm determined to get some good shots of everyone, AND of me. i never have any pictures with me in them. me and my friends, just me, me and my family- i got nothin'. i don't like looking at myself in pictures, but it would be nice to have some to remeber things by.

game saturday. theme is blues brothers. that'll be a good time. i found a hat! yay! it's not what i wanted, but it will suffice. we'll see if i can pull something off.

any other shout-outs i've forgotten about? hmmmmm.

sleep sweet, kidos!

some things in life will never be fair.
ever.

i'm not a very religious person, but this would be a very good time to pray.
Lord, give us strength and the courage we seek to support those who need it most.

how can i just sit by and watch so many people close to me be in so much pain?
i have to do something. anything. whatever i can.
suddenly, every problem i thought i was facing seems petty and foolish. there is so much more to worry about. so many more people that come before me. i only hope that i can help someone that needs me. i want to help. if i can be someone's rock to stand upon, then, perhaps, someone can help me.


my heart, whether it be noble or not, shall not crack.
sleep sweet, friends.
may flights of angels sing you to your rest.

what do you think of my new picture? i decided that a new template just wasn't for me. took me forever to edit, format, and upload that thing tho. it wouldn't have taken me so long if i would have known what i was doing. i'm all for trying new things, but maybe next time i'll think twice before messing with programs that i don't know how to use or alter. but hey, it looks like i got the job done, despite the trouble it caused me along the way. does anyone know how i can put a border around it or something to make it look a little... neater? right now it looks as though it doesn't really belong, but i like it nevertheless.

haven't done much this afternoon. worked on a few scholarships, messed with some html stuff.. nothing exciting. maybe i'll find something to do tonight. i'd love to get out of the house. or at least have people over or something. i've got quartet practice tomorrow afternoon. that'll be fun. i have to bring an extra horn for eric since he left his at school. haha. silly kid.


ah, those twisted secrets we keep =).

you know, i think my posts only seem really really incredibly long all the time because of the template i use for my blog. maybe i should change it...

shs jazz groups miss first competition of the year.
some headline.
it was disappointing. not being able to attend the north shore jazz fest because there's a ton of snow outside and 'they' wouldn't let the busses leave. i suppose we'll have to wait another three weeks to show 'em what we've got. on the bright side, we've got that much longer to prepare. not that we weren't ready or anything, but there's always pleanty of room to improve.

i feel 100% better. no more sickening feelings when i stand. no more sharp pains in my chest or back. dizziness, fever, headaches... they're gone. thank god. i always feel so useless when i'm sick. i hate not being able to do anything. i appreciate being able to rest, but i'm the kind of person that would rather wear myself ragged than have nothing to do.
perhaps that would explain, in part, my unwillingness to leave the game last night. if my parents would have let me, i prolly still wouldn't have gone home. i'm too stubborn and love band too much. even when i can't stand up for more than 10 minutes at a time.

there wasn't much to do today. it was icky outside, and my parents didn't want me to leave the house, so i was stuck here alone all day. the first excuse my parents gave me for staying in was that they didn't want me randomly driving around schaumburg in the snow. i didn't like that answer. especially since right after they said that, they told me they were going out and wouldn't be back until late tonight. i explained the hypocracy of their restrictions, so instead, i had to stay home because i was getting over a very unusual illness. i thought that was fair enough. but i'm well again, so i can do anything i want tomorrow. yay!

i must have been in some kind of romantic mood today. i listened to the Garden State soundtrack like i needed to memorize every lyric to every song on the cd by tomorrow or i would be shot. i took my very first bubble bath, found some old incense (but didn't burn any), lit a whole bunch of candles, watched Kate and Leopold, and wrote. a lot. poetry, stories, lyrics, feelings... spent a lot of time writing out every little insightful or supposedly insightful thought or idea that crossed my mind. i didn't finish a lot of it, but i think i got most of it out and written down so i won't forget when the time comes to complete my 'work'. creative writing- it's a really enjoyable hobby. i don't know if i'm any good or not. i can't be the judge of my own.. stuff. i can't complain; however, since i rarely let anyone read anything i write. if i don't ask for outside opinions, i'll never know if the stuff i write is decent or if it's "shit my grandmother could have written" as they say in LoveActually.

maybe i'm not that bad. i got an e-mail from the website i sent my poem to for mr. murawski's writing contest assignment, and they said that they want to publish my work in this book. if they actually liked that thing i sent in, i think i'm going to assume it was a hoax. i plan on investigating the website a bit more and the anthologies they claim to produce every so often, then i'll get excited about being published. i don't know. they do make a very big deal about mailing (actual mail, not e-mail) the consent form to them with signatures and parent signatures and whatnot. i prolly just got lucky. maybe no one submits stuff to this site. all the stuff they send me on how they're one of the most popular online free poetry contests and how they have a new featured poet every week out of their entries.. who knows what's true. maybe murawski will know.

i've got a few ideas left, so i'm going to get back to my candles and writing.
hope everyone's weekend is going well =)

If I caught the world in a bottle
And everything was still beneath the moon
Without your love would it shine for me?
If I was smart as Aristotle
And understood the rings around the moon
What would it all matter if you loved me?

something's wrong with me. i don't feel right. there's a constant nervous feeling in my stomach and my chest. kinda like having butterflies in your stomach.. but it's not quite the same. it won't go away, and i don't know why it's there. i'm hot and cold at the same time, and i shake a little. it better go away soon.

i have a bad feeling that something has got me incredibly worked up.

today i got to sleep in, go to jazz band, go to lunch and a student board meeting at fuddruckers, go for a drive because i didn't feel good and i needed to think, and then i came home to relax and study. sounds like a good night to me =)

tomorrow i've got an early meeting for my internship, a survey final, jazz band, and it's senior night!!! woo hoo! good times. on top of that, we've got a double-header tomorrow night. i look forward to it.

i want you to want me
i need you to need me
i'd love you to love me..

finals finals finals. i'm nowhere near as concerned about them as i should be. i studied a little.. there's just something inside me screaming out "procrastinate!" finals this year just don't have much of an affect on me. at least not until right before taking the test. oh well. i tried.
well. sort of.

i only had one final today (the last one), but i came to school first period today to practice with my alto quartet. picked up jess and vinnie, and battled the immense about of traffic that appeared this morning due to the snow/ice/slush. let me tell you, waking up and going to school early even though i didn't have to there until after 10 was wellllll worth it. practice today was amazing. eric didn't come, so me, vinnie, and eamonn did what we could with our music and discovered the COOLEST thing about the second movement in our piece. it's one of those things that only bandos would understand and complete music losers would appreciate. if you're curious you can ask me. i'd be happy to share.

after we were done practicing, the three of us snuck ourselves off campus (out the band entrance) and went to McDonalds for some breakfast. then i got to spend an hour and a half lounging in the band room. some of the highlights would be listening to pat play piano, putting a turnabout 'parking ticket' from jess on dg's car, singing songs from moulin rouge with pat, studying stats- or lack there of, and just acting like my normal, unusual, chatty self. ahhh, wonderful romance.
stats final: eh.
that about covers the description.
we'll see what happens.

jazz band today was fun, as always. i like this year's set. i can't wait till this saturday. jazz fests are always so funnnn. yay =)

the rest of the day looks as though it will be incredibly boring. complete with doing chores, sitting around, and getting yelled at. woot!

"all women really want is to feel appreciated."
ain't it the truth, ain't it the truth.

speaking of the "L" word...
turnabout is coming up fast.
see, i have this friend. i know her fairly well. we talk sometimes. for our purposes here today, in order to keep her true identity a secret, we'll call her.... bird.
well, bird needs to find herself a date to the dance. she'd prolly be willing to go stag, but i have a feeling that she'd feel awfully lonely during the slow dances, even though there aren't many of them.
she doesn't have all that much to offer. she's kinda annoying, not very pretty, and i don't think there's much about her that makes her seem very special, but i know that she would do her best to make sure that her date has a good time. if you have any suggestions, advice, or know of someone that might be interested in going with m... my friend, let me know.
thanks kids! there's still pleanty of time to make a decision, but it never hurts to plan ahead.
right, bird?
i'm sure she'd agree.

yesterday, jess and i went to jen's house to try on eachother's dresses. it was very fun. we're all quite excited, and we're all indecisive. which dress to wear? new or borrowed? fancy or fun? what kind of hairstyle? what jewlery?
just wait till it gets to be time to plan out the night. where to do pictures, what to do after the dance...
i love dances.

no finals tomorrow. just jazz band. that'll be good. friday i've got to go early for an internship meeting, take my survey final, and stick around for jazz band. we've got a game that night too. coolness. it's senior night!!! ..... already. wow. time flies.

that's all for now. i think i need a snack and a nap.

it seems that no one can get my name right today. i've been called april, jen, robing, and "whatever your name is." i've also been called a couple of nicknames, but those don't count.
okay. that was random. but i'm done now.
tootles.